So, I’ve made a holiday commissions page a while ago, explaining my situation before. I am a 19-year-old girl that works her ass off cooking and cleaning for her toxic family in California. I have a couple anxiety disorders(social and general) as well as depression. I stayed home with my family to help out since my dad’s the only working man in a family of 8 instead of going to college.
I regret caving into my family’s request to stay. My family is very toxic to me. I am invalidated there, My kindness is taken advantage of. The maternal side of my family are notorious addicts and alcoholics. My father is highly volatile and my mother is a chronic liar. There is no one in this family that I can trust because I constantly have to walk on eggshells just to keep my hair from being pulled or my clavicle from being bruised by furious pokes or simply being screamed at to the point of tears. For the past year my only comfort has been my anxiety Walter, who was made by my online boyfriend of three years, and my newly-established therapy sessions,.
I’m trying to enroll into college in Ohio, not only to get a fresh start but to be with my boyfriend. Ohio is also the state where a few of my best friends are, as well as all the friend that I made there in the short amount of time I was there thanks to my boyfriend. But he can’t pay for everything, obviously. And I can’t ask to live with his family at his parent’s house, there’s just no room.
And over here on the west coast, the job market isn’t so great. So, I greatly apologize for making this request, it makes me sick to my stomach but I just CAN NOT stay here in this house anymore, not after my dad made me give my therapist my six week’s notice. We only meet for 50 minutes a week, but my dad decided that I don’t need therapy anymore and that it was too inconvenient for me to go. That means I only get FIVE hours left with my therapist before I’m all alone again.
I can’t do it.
I just can’t do it. I have to get out of here. I have to get out of this state. So that’s why I have to make another one of these posts because I’m a disgusting and helpless piece of shit that just wants a new life and security.
I’m opening up commissions again, with cheaper prices and more variety.
- Pokemon OCs
- Ponies/My Little Pony
- Humans in general
- Silly shit
- Simple Pokemon
- TALKSPRITES (Prices are varied depending on complexity, but a standard pack with four emotions of your choice will be 35 dollars)
WILL NOT DO:
- Gore (Blood or cuts is ok however)
- Complex Pokemon
- Complex Backgrounds
IF YOU WOULD LIKE, I CAN ALSO LIVESTREAM/JOIN.ME YOUR COMMISSION. This allows you to see the work I’ve been doing on it as well as make changes before it’s too late.
YOU MAY ALSO PURCHASE GIFT ART FOR FRIENDS OR FAMILY.
I’m sorry for the long read guys, but I appreciate the fact that you actually read this far. And even if you can’t commission, could you please reblog this so that people know that I’m out there? I’d love any help I can get. I need money for college applications, SAT tests(should my current score not be enough), as well as money to save and use for the big move and to ensure I’m not homeless.
Alternatively, even though I’m getting sick to my stomach at the thought, I’ve opened up donations(and made buttons on both my personaland my roleplay accounts). Donate as little or as much as you like, since every little bit helps, but I would still prefer commissions since that way I actually feel like I earned/deserved the money.
Again, thank you for your time, and sorry to bother you.